Posts Tagged ‘ Ambient ’

Nah und Fern.


I found myself lost in Gas for what seemed like an eternity.

I spent months wandering around the forest, lost and confused. Often scared, always overwhelmed. It made me feel alive but brought me down to Earth like nothing else ever has. But it is never this Earth; it is always another, a strange alteration of this one. A hyper-real, infinitely intense world – A world that feels like it could tear itself asunder at any moment, that all it would take would be a single misplaced footstep or the slightest of knocks to throw the world out of balance. It is a distorted world, twisted in such a way that you wouldn’t know that it were at first glance. You would need time. How much time, I cannot say. You would need to look hard, harder than you ever have in this world, and study your surroundings. Only then do you notice the shifting in the fabric and the hightened intensity of your surroundings: the colour, the shape, the air against your skin.  I felt always off-kilter. My shoulders were burdened with the feelings and emotions of others, people whom I’d never met, people whom I wasn’t sure had ever existed. People whom I wasn’t sure would ever exist. I didn’t know if I wanted to escape. I didn’t know if I ever needed to escape.

Occasionally I dip my big toe back into the lukewarm, glass-like water and I see my reflection. But it is always distorted, always misshapen in ways I can never comprehend.

I now find myself perpetually scared by Gas. I am scared because I know just how easily I could get lost all over again.


Mus Martis.



Travel Sickness.


Travel Sickness (TS) is a potentially deadly cultural illness, a virus found in the heart, mind, body, and politics of certain humans. People can become infected by:

  • Willingly engaging in meaningless, emotion-based movements spawned by corporate interests.
  • The purchase and consumption of personal image products intended to mask individual creativity and independent thought.
  • Being exposed to disingenuous, uninformed, or other culturally retrograde concepts, often conveyed by parents, education systems, and peer groups.

TS causes people who are born healthy and without prejudice to slowly become very ignorant. Shortly after birth (about two years), humans are generally infected with the virus through parents and extended family, often developing a gradual distrust of thought and analysis and increased reliance upon received information (via hosts such as parents, peers, and educators) and factual regurgitation. Other symptoms of TS may include:

  • Difficulty accepting human uniqueness and individuality.
  • Propensity toward mindlessly repeating information culled from any media or source of authority (assumed, presumed, or otherwise).

Without treatment, TS may cause death of the soul. Most spiritual deaths caused by TS occur within humans who live too long without an appropriate degree of intellectual and emotional development.

Once a person develops TS, treatment for the illness is self-actualization and personal awareness, including focused attention to intellectual and emotional development to foster a sense of true individuality (as opposed to the individuality presumed in the assumption of dead political and socio-economic lifestyles). Yet this treatment, while self-administered, usually gains potency only upon consistent application and usage throughout adulthood.


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